Tuesday, November 25, 2014
Sometimes the beauty of someone overwhelms me. Most often it is one of my children.
Today Gwenna was playing on the couch accross the room from me and I was just trapped, transfixed by her perfect beauty. Play dough on her dress, sliver in her finger, unclipped toe nails, unkempt hair. Perfect beauty. Big blue eyes, curious little fingers, beautiful olive skin, impish little smile. Perfect beauty.
As I watched her, I slowly reached in my pocket and slid the screen up to turn on the camera. Just then her head snaps up and we lock eyes... For probably a full minute before I lift my phone and snap a picture, and she asks if she is in fact allowed to lay on the back of the couch. When I say yes, I get that smile that makes my heart leap for joy. And then she's back in whatever world she was a moment ago, and my presence is forgotten.
I pray that I will always have the bold love to tell her how perfectly beautiful she is. And I pray I will always be able to say little things that bring that smile to her lips.
Monday, November 24, 2014
So, I love my house. Of course there are still lots of things we would like to improve or alter, but I am so happy to have a home to surround our little family that honestly I don't notice the things we want to change. We are dreamers and love spending time talking about all of the things we could do and places to go... But at the end of the day, if doing any of that sacrificed any element of our family's happiness or security- I would pass.
Another angle is that I don't like to start a project unless I know exactly what the outcome will look like, and I know I will love it.
As a result of these two things, I often don't tackle even small projects that would make us happy and more at home... *cough* trying to work on that...
Our living room is the perfect example. When we moved in we didn't bring any of our old furniture with us- and so we spent the first few months slowly finding pieces we both love... The only thing we had real trouble with was pictures. Both Rhodric and I have pretty specific taste, and taste that doesn't always pair well together. But on a recent family thrift date, he found a set of four (actually there were about a dozen but we only bought four) framed photographs taken by the same photographer that we both love!
These pictures were the completing element of the wall arrangement I had in my mind. I had accumulated all the other pieces ages ago but wouldn't hang them until we could hang it all. Although five months of bare walls was a tad... Plain...
It was worth the wait to have something complete! I love our home!
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
I believe that all big sisters have a little feeling inside that makes them want to keep their baby brother to themselves forever.
Well I am a big sister of a not so baby brother so I admit there is a thread of that sentiment somewhere in my being. But I can honestly say that oh so much more than that, I am excited for him to fully step into the world. It's one of my great delights to hear all the hopes and dreams that he has for his future. And as I watch him finishing his senior year of high school, I get so excited! So excited to see his heart and charisma change the world, to meet the girl whose world he will rock, to see the lives that will take a hopeful turn as they cross his.
CJ. My manly little brother.
To the world; get ready, and you are welcome.
Sunday, November 9, 2014
There is this girl named Gwenna. She's a spit fire litte thing who thinks she's about three feet taller than she really is. She's hot headed and sassy, kind and generous too. When she crosses your path, you will find yourself shaking your head in disbelief or amusement at something she has said or done.
This girl is my daughter and as much as I try to teach her, I find myself learning so much and growing so much by being around her everyday.
It would be foolish for me to think of my girls as a burden... Or that they have robbed me of some career or life that I deserved. No. They bless my soul by pushing me to know what I believe and do my best to live what I believe. They encourage me and I already see them making the world a better place.
I love her.
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
My heart is full... Perhaps overflowing.
How am I to keep up with a blog when my hands and heart are so full? The answer? I can't. At least not consistently.
Hopefully one day I will be able to let the jumble of emotions fall out onto the keyboard- but for right now, I am happy to just share what I can, when I can.
At this moment, I am overwhelmed with love for so many people. I feel so blessed to be witnessing God's hand working in so many of the vibrant lives around me.
There is so much to say about what I am learning about myself, my family and my God... And I am hopeful that I will be able to share sometime soon, you know, tomorrow or next year!
Tuesday, September 30, 2014
As I have started to be more intentional about Gwenna's "preschool" (what is preschool anyway? It didn't exist 2 decades ago!... More on that another time). Reading aloud is an area that I have found repeatedly discouraging. With Amelia climbing on and off and running to get into something, we hardly ever get through a book without interruption. Solution? Poems! So quick and fun, Gwenna thinks most are hilarious, and you can read 10 at a time, pausing for baby damage control without feeling totally frazzled! Here is one of our favorites that I grew up on as well:
By Robert Louis Stevenson
I have a little shadow that goes in and out with me,
And what can be the use of him is more than I can see.
He is very, very like me from the heels up to the head;
And I see him jump before me, when I jump into my bed.
The funniest thing about him is the way he likes to grow—
Not at all like proper children, which is always very slow;
For he sometimes shoots up taller like an india-rubber ball,
And he sometimes gets so little that there's none of him at all.
He hasn't got a notion of how children ought to play,
And can only make a fool of me in every sort of way.
He stays so close beside me, he's a coward you can see;
I'd think shame to stick to nursie as that shadow sticks to me!
One morning, very early, before the sun was up,
I rose and found the shining dew on every buttercup;
But my lazy little shadow, like an arrant sleepy-head,
Had stayed at home behind me and was fast asleep in bed.
Thursday, September 11, 2014
On Thursdays we keep company with four year old Jed. Thursdays may be both Gwenna and Amelia's favorite day of the week. He loves to entertain them in the way that 4 yr old boys do; head banging and loudly falling over- and their hearty belly laughs are enterpreted by him correctly as, "encore!"
To be sure they don't always get along, and neither is quick to compromise, but they are getting quicker at agreeing to disagree.
Jed being a year older, makes setting up little preschool activities all the easier and they will chat and work on a puzzle, or project for over an hour while Amelia naps!
She will be so sad next year when he starts kindergarten.
A couple extras of Gwenna. She is growing into the most beautiful girl!
How did you grow up eating a sandwich? Did you leave the crust? I was a crust first then enjoy the middle kind of girl. Gwenna proves more meticulous like daddy. She nibbles it all the way away in perfect rows! I think it's adorable!
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
While unpacking one of the last boxes the other night, we had an interesting exchange with Gwenna. She loves princesses and fancy gowns as much as the next girl, so when I found my wedding dress, I had no doubt she would be pleased. She seemed thrilled and agreed I should try it on. It fit better than it did at our wedding! Of course what naturally followed was R and I dancing and reminiscing before Gwenna interrupted asking about where she was at wedding. And if I was her mommy then. Our answers wholly disgruntled her and soon she was repeating, "mom please take it off. You should take that off now."
Friday, August 22, 2014
Some days no matter what I do to my hair, it just won't cooperate. Today was a day like that. It's silly that this has the potential power to ruin my day... But not today. Gwenna sat and talked to me while I picked it out and we decided big hair was fun. Just like that. She wanted to take a picture to show aunt Rose and Daddy.
Being a good mom requires living as an example- it isn't always easy to practice what you preach- today it was embracing my most natural self with a smile and laugh!
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
One exciting aspect of our new house is that we actually have room to let people crash for a night or two! My sister Jade is our first overnight guest, and Gwenna was THRILLED! She even made sure her jammie pants matched her aunties.
We put Amelia to bed and let G stay up and play games for an extra hour (I know I know, we are so generous!). Uncle Wiggly was a hit, and fun to see her experiencing the same game I used to play at my grandmas growing up.
But the ultimate highlight was Jenga! At first we told her she could watch, but after she saw how it worked she convinced us to let her try. She was amazing! Rhodric, Jade and I had our jaws on the floor with very turn she took! Such nimble little fingers! And just look at her expressions! So many of these comments:
"This is making me so nervous!"
"I am so proud myself!!"
"That was a close one!"
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
"So mom, I think I don't want long hair like rapunzel anymore..."
"Mom you said we could talk about a haircut for me... Can we talk about that today? I am do ready for this!"
These are the things I have been hearing from Gwenna for the past week or two... At first we dismissed the comments but as she came more persistent, we realized she really knew what she was asking for.
So this afternoon I dropped her off at my sisters for a haircut- and voila! It's just the style she asked for, absolutely adorable, and fits her personality perfectly. Her new nickname for the moment is Ramona.
Friday, August 8, 2014
I've been meaning to post these for awhile! Summer loving with these girls is... Unforgettable. They are growing so fast! Stay tuned for Gwenna's new haircut!
Babies require so much attention, but lovers do just as much! Last Sunday we got to spend the whole day together sans babies!